Emily's Bittersweet Life
What is not brought to consciousness, comes to us as fate---Carl Jung
复活节，却感觉不到自己的复活。在舅舅家里过复活节，关在屋里看"sex and the city"，看到一集谈到了the greatest love in one's life. 她们说人在一生中会有两个greatest love，我笑，真的吗？
还记得在前几天，终于Dan跟说说了sorry,可是就像我给他回的短信中我说,sorry, I just simply hate you more than anything else in this planet.整个感觉我现在只能说，这段感情就像一个人给了我一刀，然后对我说对不起，我不是故意要捅你的，可是i am bleeding，我笑。如果你从一开始就不想being in a relationship，为什么不早告诉我？到这个时候了，你才对我说,i apologize for everything i've put you through, i am just not ready to be in a relationship.我一点都不惊讶，so, what were we?或许这已经不重要了。这段无疾而终的感情，或许一段只有我认为being in a relationship的感情，在春暖花开之际悄然离去。
在我离开这段感情之后，我以为我遇到了可以相信可以依靠的人，可是才发现he is not availiable，后来在一次晚餐之后他对我说, I can't deny i like you so much, for evertyhing we had was so real, and i love my girlfriend. 然后我笑了，因为我不用说什么了，没有什么好说的了。if you love your girlfriend, i wish you happiness.
别人说一次跌倒了是遇人不顺，两次跌倒了要爬起来，但是如果次次都跌倒那就要看看是不是自己的问题了。有时候真的想说i don't believe in relationship anymore,but why? should i stop believing in love because of some failed relationships? Definetely not, yes, I am sad, very hurt,but that's the way right? Who never get hurt in a lifetime? Probably there are, they are lucky, without a doubt, I admire them. But I feel thankful as well, for these lessons and experience I learned has made me become maturer and wiser.
